something good has happened.
something i thought wouldn't.
but that all too familiar sadness has accompanied it.
and i go on thinking things would be better, but when met with the reality of the situation the worst possible thing happens.
same daggers, different name.
I know what is right, patience.
but i can i dare stand it for so long?
decisions will be made, problems will arise
so do i let the past repeat itself?
i should make do at this second chance,
but then again, chance doesn't exist in these terms?
and if it is a determination of my life, is it for the good?
I can try be strong, and then suffer the same degradation i did before..
become second rate, second hand to myself as before.
Could i stand another renewal?
or shall i just draw from my new founded weaknesses and work from there?
There is no reason this is happening once again. But there is a rare opportunity, just as there was a rare opportunity as before.
is it possible to clench these emotions, be as conscious with them through analysis whilst at the same time ignoring there negative effects onto myself?
I feel i am full of great personal achievement, and with that all it takes is myself to fully grasp something translatable, ad something that can be channeled through passion.
I can feel it in this abstract memoir.
This progressional mind flow.
I have to go down this stream and to the very place i know i can control myself, but will the current keep me there for long until the tide changes and takes me back down the mountain to this feeling once again?
but then how can i be so predictive of these things when there may be any outcome?
do i look for the worst and presume it?
how can i presume an outcome anyway, who's to say my logic and myself is capable of it?
oh well, these are questions i can channel to the page, but whether or not the fellow cornflakes find this necessary look into the foundations of my own labrynth.
Friday, October 30, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
beginnings and endings
everyone always goes on about all the laws of physics and maths and chemistry and how they can be used to explain basically everything about everything. and usually they do an alright job explaining the stupid stuff that no-one really cares about and answering questions that no-one asks. but what explains all the serious stuff???
i believe that the universe only has two fundimental laws. two laws that define what exists and what doesnt. and the thing is, these two laws actually work for everything, and are present in every other law or theory you can think of.
the first law is that eventually, everything ends. nothing lasts forever. its impossible to think that it can. forever is an illusion created by our own fantasies about perfection and eternity. everything ends. happiness, sorrow, love, life, even time. everything that ever was or is, will end, or already has ended. its inescapable. thinking that something will last for eternity will only mean that when it does end, your goingt o be more crushed about it.
and the second law is that, for every ending, there is a beginning. everytime something ends, something new comes into play to replace the thing that just ended. when happiness ends, despair begins. when sorrow ends, joy begins. when love ends, spite begins. when life ends, death begins. and when time ends, well, something other than time begins to take the place of time.
there is also another phenomenom that i have noticed as well. whenever a bad thing ends, something good starts from the ashes of the bad thing. and once a good thing comes to an end, a bad thing rises up to claim you. its quite a perverse cycle. it means that we look forward to the good times because they are good, yet also live in fear for when the goodness ends and the badness begins. conversely, we look forward to when a bad thing ends as it heralds the arrival of something worthwhile.
its kinda unfortunate that life runs on such a cycle. what if there was a way to postpone the ending of something good, would you do it??? you probably would. just like you would stop the begining of something bad if you could. but heres the thing: trying to control the outcomes of endings and beginnings will never work. postponing an ending only makes the beginning more violent, and hastening a beginning will only cause the ending to explode sooner.
if someone ever did find out a way to completely and utterly stop something beginning or ending, then reality would simply cease to exist. if something is stopped from reaching its inevitable end, then that means that something new never starts to take its place. and that thing that would have begun would then not be able to replace another ending somewhere else, thus making that other thing never end. and this would continue upwards like a violent maelstrom untill everything comes to a standstill. it would also drive people insane. what if the awkward conversation with your parents was never allowed to end??? what if that tv show you've been waiting to start never begins??? it would be utter chaos. which is ironic, since chaos would then never be allowed to start.
i just thought this was something interesting that i was musing over. and hence, as i had thought about it, you people out there then had to know about it. look at it this way, your ignorance of the fabric of the universe is ending, and your enlightenment has just started :P
i believe that the universe only has two fundimental laws. two laws that define what exists and what doesnt. and the thing is, these two laws actually work for everything, and are present in every other law or theory you can think of.
the first law is that eventually, everything ends. nothing lasts forever. its impossible to think that it can. forever is an illusion created by our own fantasies about perfection and eternity. everything ends. happiness, sorrow, love, life, even time. everything that ever was or is, will end, or already has ended. its inescapable. thinking that something will last for eternity will only mean that when it does end, your goingt o be more crushed about it.
and the second law is that, for every ending, there is a beginning. everytime something ends, something new comes into play to replace the thing that just ended. when happiness ends, despair begins. when sorrow ends, joy begins. when love ends, spite begins. when life ends, death begins. and when time ends, well, something other than time begins to take the place of time.
there is also another phenomenom that i have noticed as well. whenever a bad thing ends, something good starts from the ashes of the bad thing. and once a good thing comes to an end, a bad thing rises up to claim you. its quite a perverse cycle. it means that we look forward to the good times because they are good, yet also live in fear for when the goodness ends and the badness begins. conversely, we look forward to when a bad thing ends as it heralds the arrival of something worthwhile.
its kinda unfortunate that life runs on such a cycle. what if there was a way to postpone the ending of something good, would you do it??? you probably would. just like you would stop the begining of something bad if you could. but heres the thing: trying to control the outcomes of endings and beginnings will never work. postponing an ending only makes the beginning more violent, and hastening a beginning will only cause the ending to explode sooner.
if someone ever did find out a way to completely and utterly stop something beginning or ending, then reality would simply cease to exist. if something is stopped from reaching its inevitable end, then that means that something new never starts to take its place. and that thing that would have begun would then not be able to replace another ending somewhere else, thus making that other thing never end. and this would continue upwards like a violent maelstrom untill everything comes to a standstill. it would also drive people insane. what if the awkward conversation with your parents was never allowed to end??? what if that tv show you've been waiting to start never begins??? it would be utter chaos. which is ironic, since chaos would then never be allowed to start.
i just thought this was something interesting that i was musing over. and hence, as i had thought about it, you people out there then had to know about it. look at it this way, your ignorance of the fabric of the universe is ending, and your enlightenment has just started :P
Monday, October 19, 2009
question!
ok i realised i just posted something, but i need everyones oppinions on this one.
say that hypothetically you could forsee an even that will happen in the near future. im not talking psychic or anything, although that would be cool, but like you can just feel and know that something, an event, will happen.
now, say that this hypothetical scenario that you see coming will hurt people. thats a bad thing isnt it??? well im pretty sure it is anyway. and you know that if you do nothing about it, this scenario will come about and hurt everyone.
naturally, you would try and do something to stop it from happening. but what happens when you cant stop it??? what if every step you take to stop this terrible event only brings you closer to anihilation??? you become the cause of the terrible scenario. damned if you do, damned if you dont.
this is my queary to all you avid young bloggers out there: would u sit back and let the even unfold, knowing full well that it would hurt people, or would u try and stop it, in full knowledge that you would only make it come about faster. sit back and wait, or accelerate and become the cause: which would you do???
say that hypothetically you could forsee an even that will happen in the near future. im not talking psychic or anything, although that would be cool, but like you can just feel and know that something, an event, will happen.
now, say that this hypothetical scenario that you see coming will hurt people. thats a bad thing isnt it??? well im pretty sure it is anyway. and you know that if you do nothing about it, this scenario will come about and hurt everyone.
naturally, you would try and do something to stop it from happening. but what happens when you cant stop it??? what if every step you take to stop this terrible event only brings you closer to anihilation??? you become the cause of the terrible scenario. damned if you do, damned if you dont.
this is my queary to all you avid young bloggers out there: would u sit back and let the even unfold, knowing full well that it would hurt people, or would u try and stop it, in full knowledge that you would only make it come about faster. sit back and wait, or accelerate and become the cause: which would you do???
lost for words
have you ever sat there thinking over your day and all the things you said to people? you probably have. and if you've done that, then you've probably also thought about all the things you wished you had said, or could say. you think, man, i would have so owned that guy if i'd said that. but you didnt say it. and nothing happened.
is there a place that all the unsaid things go??? if there is, it'd be filled to the brimb by now. so many times there have been things i wanted to say but didnt. sometimes their things you think while your angry, and you dont say them because you know that your angry and it will only get you into even more shit. sometimes you dont say anything because you know that saying something will only hurt people. sometimes you just plain and simple cant bring yourself to say it.
ok, i think iv talked enough on that. NOW: what happens when you run out of things to say??? in the middle of a conversation, where you find yourself completely speechless, what do u do??? someone please tell me, cause sometimes its down right awkward when your expected to say something but can think of anything to say. infact, its also really irritating. its like, brain, what the fuck man??? you left me hanging when i needed you.
even worse then that, when you can think of a thousand things to say, all of them good, but you cant formulate them into words. you have so many thoughts and emotions and actions you want to explain and tell people, but you find yourself at a loss for words to describe them with. like suddenly english has failed you and your left with nothing. fuck i hate when that happens. yet i find it happening more and more often lately.
i pose this challenge to you: if there is a time when i was talking to any of you out there, but i couldnt think of anything to say, i didnt say anything, or i said something dumb, tell me the scenario and il think of something better to say in that situation you where in with me. come on, bring it, i dare ya.
is there a place that all the unsaid things go??? if there is, it'd be filled to the brimb by now. so many times there have been things i wanted to say but didnt. sometimes their things you think while your angry, and you dont say them because you know that your angry and it will only get you into even more shit. sometimes you dont say anything because you know that saying something will only hurt people. sometimes you just plain and simple cant bring yourself to say it.
ok, i think iv talked enough on that. NOW: what happens when you run out of things to say??? in the middle of a conversation, where you find yourself completely speechless, what do u do??? someone please tell me, cause sometimes its down right awkward when your expected to say something but can think of anything to say. infact, its also really irritating. its like, brain, what the fuck man??? you left me hanging when i needed you.
even worse then that, when you can think of a thousand things to say, all of them good, but you cant formulate them into words. you have so many thoughts and emotions and actions you want to explain and tell people, but you find yourself at a loss for words to describe them with. like suddenly english has failed you and your left with nothing. fuck i hate when that happens. yet i find it happening more and more often lately.
i pose this challenge to you: if there is a time when i was talking to any of you out there, but i couldnt think of anything to say, i didnt say anything, or i said something dumb, tell me the scenario and il think of something better to say in that situation you where in with me. come on, bring it, i dare ya.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Mystery Team
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I demand it! Demand it too! This movie is going to be absolutely awesome and I don't want to miss out on it just being released in the US.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
We Are Our Superiors
"Demeaned... Why?"
Our values, that don't hurt anyone else... crushed by some random stranger, spinning a gun of words and criticisms.
Criticisms that are neither constructive or to help.
Criticisms that tell us to go down the path, and follow the way of the random gunslinger.
Does that sway us?
If an individual were to embrace these ways he will find it a superiority in him, that puts him beyond those who do not follow.
Demonstrated through history per Tyranny, Dictatorship, Religion and Government, Superior in groups, inferior individual.
Whether be in groups or individual, our values are placed on our demonstration of power.
When something is loathed by you, can you not help but speak out against it when your face is pressed so hard on it's glass?
By speaking out against a harmless life, demeaning and speaking the reality it is through your eyes, in direct spite on the person and there actions, does that make us bad?
It does not, it makes us human.
Jesus spoke out against those who were provoked into crucifying him, Just as Hitler spoke out against the same group of people.
Rappers, listening to there poetry of the streets will physically and verbally show there disgust to a walking fringe, pumping melodramatic songs of lost love into his ear lobes.
And, a man such as myself, speaks out against enhanced enjoyment, the act illicit drugs smuggled into the PEZ dispenser women are brought into this world with.
Does that sum me as a person, or does it just complete the Ying and Yang that is my mind and soul?
Do i want people to go down the pathway of Dante Lovecraft, or am i speaking out against a menacing pitiful activity?
A shared value among others, does this majority justify myself? Are the criticisms of the bad that don't directly harm others a bad thing for me?
It's hard, when something is generalized and "bad" when indeed it's doesn't harm anyone, directly or intentionally. Did someone who shares a view similar to mine make that rule, that was passed down society into my mind and the minds of others?
As personal as this is to me, it is just as personal to each one of you.
Those in a group of creation and god, a cover up for sick twisted acts and depraved intentions. Because your upbringing represented this good does that necessarily justify everything done? Or because you were raised to believe and understand, does it make it real?
If you were to raise a child, and educate him his whole life, that the name of the sky's color is green, if he didn't know otherwise he wouldn't question it.
If one was raised, and told that everyone had the intention of killing him, for so long and from such a young age, would he ever trust anyone but his educator?
Our values, again, are they entirely good?
Do our own personal judgements mean all that is truely right? obviously not.
And when you utter those few words to one individual, that demean and put down what there world is around them,
then the skies will fall down, violet and crimson in its collapsing swirls. And when caught up in it, swirls of emotion and tension will bring you down below the surface, away from everything else that other person was to you.
And with a chance and percentage of whether or not you will say anything, will determine whether the void will take you.
Because with those magic words, if the emotion power isn't in your hands, you will be dragged down, And your life involving one you have loved, yet was a faulted princess, may as well be Hell existing.
You'll call out to them, but the words you should have choked on will form nothing more than an ugly mask over your grief stricken face, making you look nothing like the man you once were, and more of a tormentor, knowing at the chamber doors, demanding entrance to shadow the view of the outside.
To Ourselves, we are everyone elses superiors in our particular ideals.
They will always be better.
And thats being human.
You may deny it, but you know in the back of your mind there have been moments where you will boil in someones own values, as innocent as they may be.
And in the end, if you were to utter the mask to distort your image, you'll find yourself asking
"Demeaning... Why?"
Our values, that don't hurt anyone else... crushed by some random stranger, spinning a gun of words and criticisms.
Criticisms that are neither constructive or to help.
Criticisms that tell us to go down the path, and follow the way of the random gunslinger.
Does that sway us?
If an individual were to embrace these ways he will find it a superiority in him, that puts him beyond those who do not follow.
Demonstrated through history per Tyranny, Dictatorship, Religion and Government, Superior in groups, inferior individual.
Whether be in groups or individual, our values are placed on our demonstration of power.
When something is loathed by you, can you not help but speak out against it when your face is pressed so hard on it's glass?
By speaking out against a harmless life, demeaning and speaking the reality it is through your eyes, in direct spite on the person and there actions, does that make us bad?
It does not, it makes us human.
Jesus spoke out against those who were provoked into crucifying him, Just as Hitler spoke out against the same group of people.
Rappers, listening to there poetry of the streets will physically and verbally show there disgust to a walking fringe, pumping melodramatic songs of lost love into his ear lobes.
And, a man such as myself, speaks out against enhanced enjoyment, the act illicit drugs smuggled into the PEZ dispenser women are brought into this world with.
Does that sum me as a person, or does it just complete the Ying and Yang that is my mind and soul?
Do i want people to go down the pathway of Dante Lovecraft, or am i speaking out against a menacing pitiful activity?
A shared value among others, does this majority justify myself? Are the criticisms of the bad that don't directly harm others a bad thing for me?
It's hard, when something is generalized and "bad" when indeed it's doesn't harm anyone, directly or intentionally. Did someone who shares a view similar to mine make that rule, that was passed down society into my mind and the minds of others?
As personal as this is to me, it is just as personal to each one of you.
Those in a group of creation and god, a cover up for sick twisted acts and depraved intentions. Because your upbringing represented this good does that necessarily justify everything done? Or because you were raised to believe and understand, does it make it real?
If you were to raise a child, and educate him his whole life, that the name of the sky's color is green, if he didn't know otherwise he wouldn't question it.
If one was raised, and told that everyone had the intention of killing him, for so long and from such a young age, would he ever trust anyone but his educator?
Our values, again, are they entirely good?
Do our own personal judgements mean all that is truely right? obviously not.
And when you utter those few words to one individual, that demean and put down what there world is around them,
then the skies will fall down, violet and crimson in its collapsing swirls. And when caught up in it, swirls of emotion and tension will bring you down below the surface, away from everything else that other person was to you.
And with a chance and percentage of whether or not you will say anything, will determine whether the void will take you.
Because with those magic words, if the emotion power isn't in your hands, you will be dragged down, And your life involving one you have loved, yet was a faulted princess, may as well be Hell existing.
You'll call out to them, but the words you should have choked on will form nothing more than an ugly mask over your grief stricken face, making you look nothing like the man you once were, and more of a tormentor, knowing at the chamber doors, demanding entrance to shadow the view of the outside.
To Ourselves, we are everyone elses superiors in our particular ideals.
They will always be better.
And thats being human.
You may deny it, but you know in the back of your mind there have been moments where you will boil in someones own values, as innocent as they may be.
And in the end, if you were to utter the mask to distort your image, you'll find yourself asking
"Demeaning... Why?"
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHGHHHHH
THERE IS NO REASON TO THIS POST, BUT TO SAY.
I WENT, I SAW MARILYN MANSON
I CAN DIE, AND FEEL MY LIFE IS ACCOMPLISHED
IT WAS SOOO GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD
REVELL IN MY GLORY, THOU WHO HAS SEEEN MANSON WITH HIS OWN EYES
ITS LIKE SEEING GOD. IF GOD EXISTED. BUT IF GOD EXISTED HE'D BE MARILYN MANSON.
HE WAS FUCKIN THAT MICROPHONE LIKE NO TOMOROW
one thing i do wish to point out though.
I have seen Mr Martin, Robert Smith, and Marilyn Manson all standing on the exact same spot. At challenge stadium.
I dont know i just find that interesting.
thankyou for your time.
I WENT, I SAW MARILYN MANSON
I CAN DIE, AND FEEL MY LIFE IS ACCOMPLISHED
IT WAS SOOO GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD
REVELL IN MY GLORY, THOU WHO HAS SEEEN MANSON WITH HIS OWN EYES
ITS LIKE SEEING GOD. IF GOD EXISTED. BUT IF GOD EXISTED HE'D BE MARILYN MANSON.
HE WAS FUCKIN THAT MICROPHONE LIKE NO TOMOROW
one thing i do wish to point out though.
I have seen Mr Martin, Robert Smith, and Marilyn Manson all standing on the exact same spot. At challenge stadium.
I dont know i just find that interesting.
thankyou for your time.
Monday, October 5, 2009
Well hello people
well, shouldnt i be revising for my exam im leaving for in 25 minutes?
narh
i'll come here
make a post on a blog that hasnt got a post in a while, poor neglected thing.
Anyway, as you've heard the Bilby chronicles is deceased, until someone here wishes to continue it themselves
head on over to assortedramblingsofcuntflakes.blogspot.com to read the final entry (below my post "wha ehh ahh")
please do it soon because i will be relocating the bilby chronicles to a different blog and removing them from my own.
But what is to come? well, considering how busy i'm going to be this following week you won't here much from me
you can expect 2 mini stories on this blog and my own that i am currently writing up.
One is something i wrote up in english and hope to finish
the other.... hahaha....
Let's say the other thing is a small part of a world that we wish to expand and become bigger, this minut story will keep you guessing as to what is going to happen with it.
Anyway, it has been long since this blog has seen anything that is of an assorted rambling, besides god and haircuts.
So i bring you!
Bilby 9 part 2. The unofficial sequel
Bilby jumps on sym for no particular reason and rips him appart, kills both jason and steve and kills himself.
Josh jizzes all over Quinten who then reverses all that happened because of what Josh did.
Dormors dominion no longer exists, Time has reversed to the graduation ceremony
Only none of the characters of this story exist anymore.
Except for Josh.
The End
Okay that sucked
i'll do a poem
Oh my weaney
It is josh heaney
come to the Knox
Where we'll meet David Cox
When you want a flower
go get engulfed by its cunt
or just give it a good punt
because the wolves are all about
making lots of hamburgers
for the dirty hangovers
of Josh's wild night
his rape it came of fright
And when the dark seeps near
you know Jacob is here
because you know without a doubt
that this shit obviously came from his mouth.
or maybe from his keyboard
its such a typical display
it will leave you in dismay
An awesome dude is James May
Because Top Gear is a good show
I cant give a shit about Cars, for all thee know
BUt those dudes are surely funny
they'll leave your diarhea seeping runny
narh
i'll come here
make a post on a blog that hasnt got a post in a while, poor neglected thing.
Anyway, as you've heard the Bilby chronicles is deceased, until someone here wishes to continue it themselves
head on over to assortedramblingsofcuntflakes.blogspot.com to read the final entry (below my post "wha ehh ahh")
please do it soon because i will be relocating the bilby chronicles to a different blog and removing them from my own.
But what is to come? well, considering how busy i'm going to be this following week you won't here much from me
you can expect 2 mini stories on this blog and my own that i am currently writing up.
One is something i wrote up in english and hope to finish
the other.... hahaha....
Let's say the other thing is a small part of a world that we wish to expand and become bigger, this minut story will keep you guessing as to what is going to happen with it.
Anyway, it has been long since this blog has seen anything that is of an assorted rambling, besides god and haircuts.
So i bring you!
Bilby 9 part 2. The unofficial sequel
Bilby jumps on sym for no particular reason and rips him appart, kills both jason and steve and kills himself.
Josh jizzes all over Quinten who then reverses all that happened because of what Josh did.
Dormors dominion no longer exists, Time has reversed to the graduation ceremony
Only none of the characters of this story exist anymore.
Except for Josh.
The End
Okay that sucked
i'll do a poem
Oh my weaney
It is josh heaney
come to the Knox
Where we'll meet David Cox
When you want a flower
go get engulfed by its cunt
or just give it a good punt
because the wolves are all about
making lots of hamburgers
for the dirty hangovers
of Josh's wild night
his rape it came of fright
And when the dark seeps near
you know Jacob is here
because you know without a doubt
that this shit obviously came from his mouth.
or maybe from his keyboard
its such a typical display
it will leave you in dismay
An awesome dude is James May
Because Top Gear is a good show
I cant give a shit about Cars, for all thee know
BUt those dudes are surely funny
they'll leave your diarhea seeping runny
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