invincible

first of all, im going to say that whoever posted that last blog under my name is a complete and utter wanker. no,i do not want to eat monkey flesh. yes, kung pow was an awsome movie, and monkey bone was just ok. and yes that guy that ate human flesh was also true.

BUT YOU SCREWED UP, RANDOM BLOG POSTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the version of the human flesh eating thing i tell is different. as far as i know, it wasnt some terminaly sick kid. it was some random guy who got hit by a car, and in his last moments he said yes, you can eat some of me. so they cut out a pound of his flesh and cooked it medium rare and ate it, and apparently it tasted like veal, only chewier.

so FUCK YOU!!!!!!! next time you decide to pull a spineless move like that, get your facts straight first you dick wad. im going to hunt you down and kill you :P also i never label my posts, theres another place u screwed up. and i always give them titles.

the sky is a lie. its not actually blue. it only looks that way cause light refracts off the ocean and gives it a bluish tinge. thats one reason i like cloudy days. cause the clouds cover up the lies. hehehehehe, that sounds cool.... im going to have to remember that one. anyone got a spare RPG lying around??? i have a strong urge to destroy stuff. like YOU! mwuhahahahaha!

"this moment in time, this moment defined, how is it i feel nothing?" the only thing i feel at the moment is my eyes are sore. other then that, i feel nothing. everything is distant and far away. even the table im resting my arms on feels like its fading away into dust. why do i feel nothing??? i should be feeling something right now. pain, happiness, anger, sorrow, joy, love, anything would be better than this blankness right now. i want to feel something. anything. i felt angry and upsett not too long ago. i felt happy not too long before that. but its all kinda faded.

im so tired. i know i shouldnt be, but i am. iv had more sleep this last week then iv had all term so far. but im still so tired. i dont understand it. *sigh*. im really warm right now. like burning up hallucinating warm, only im not sick. i want to find a nice cold corner and lay down there to fall asleep. that would be nice, dont u think??? finding somewhere shady and cool and cold, and just lying down to sleep. that sounds really nice right now. i must go find such a corner.... but where could i possibly find one??? the cold scares me though. once you've been in the cold for too long, you start to become cold yourself. cold people push others away from them, and are alone. sometimes i like being by myself, but not always. most of the time i like being around people. cept when they all try to kill me.......

"all my life i was in the cold, now i find i feel nothing more, leave me to learn, leave me to hurt, now im not so invincible" amazing song. had it playing non stop for like half an hour now. and its very true. people like to tell themselves they are invincible. hey, if they hear it enough they may start to believe it. i know i believe it sometimes. but hurt brings people back down from their invincible podium above us all. without hurt, there would be nothing to seperate the good times. the good times would loose all meaning to us. we need to hurt to feel good. and we also learn from hurt. it teaches us how to be human. we learn more from hurting then we do from anything else.

static x are awsome. such a good band. song is called invincible. everybody download it! it is legendary and awsome. and if you dont then i shall hunt you down and find you and kill you in many horrible and gory ways :)